I’ve had two meetings with a psychologist since my anxiety disorder diagnosis. She’s really lovely and has a very calming effect on me. She’s also great at getting me to talk, and talk, and talk. If it wasn’t what I was there for it would probably be a bit embarrassing!
She’s had me monitor and record my thoughts and feelings over the past few weeks to see if there are any consistencies and which types of thoughts I’m experiencing the most. It’s been a little unnerving – it’s not nice seeing what I tell myself in black and white like that. I’m also not sure if it has made me feel a little more anxious as well – especially when I feel anxious but can’t really work out why. But I keep pushing through because I’m sure it will help in the long run.
Another thing we have discussed is how important it is to make small, attainable goals. Little things I can work towards to stop feeling so overwhelmed with everything. My to-do lists tend to be very over-reaching, encompassing absolutely every thing that needs to be done. It’s very easy to look at those lists, think it’s all just too much and I end up doing nothing at all.
So I’m giving myself a few small goals for the next few weeks. I’ll be at my parents’ house over Christmas and then most likely for New Years as well so it won’t include many housework type goals.
♥ Keep recording my thoughts/feelings.
♥ Take photos on my dSLR, especially over Christmas.
♥ Blog once a week, at least.
♥ Spend time with Lily each day, doing an activity or reading a book.
♥ Do a 5 minute Mindfulness of Breathing meditation at least every two days.
Just little things, that should be attainable. And if I don’t do them I have to remember that that’s ok. I’ll just try again the next day.