If you follow me on Facebook you may have seen that I’ve been feeling a little down and overwhelmed lately. It’s taken me awhile to work out but basically my (what I call) anxiety has flared up again. I think it started after a large house fire one street over from us, a week ago. When I think back over the past week I realise that the way I’ve been thinking hasn’t been normal – I shouldn’t lay awake at night thinking that every little noise is someone breaking into our house, or every little cough Chloe makes is whooping cough. I’ve also felt completely overwhelmed with my to-do list and completely down on myself for not completing much.
The house is a mess and I didn’t get any zone work done last week. I barely kept on top of the washing (cleaning and hanging it out, none of it got put away) and the dirty dishes kept piling up. I just found it hard to find the energy to do anything and when I did I just didn’t seem to be completing anything.
I’ve also been working on the same assignment for a week and haven’t even finished half of it.
But now I realise what’s going on, I can start to “fix it”. I need to start sleeping more – my anxiety gets worse because I don’t sleep properly, yet I can’t sleep properly because of my anxiety.
I need to start breaking everything I need to get done down into manageable tasks. While having a detailed to-do list can make me feel overwhelmed it also helps me keep on track and focused on what I need to do.
Also, as soon as I can, I’m taking advantage of my parents’ hospitality and spending a few days at their house so I can have a break and have some help so I can get some work done on my assignment.
I’ll attempt to do the below list but I’m not going to get hung up on it if I don’t.